I’m here without you, and it’s okay for the most part.
Although you’re no longer here to put your arm around my shoulder as we figure this thing called life with all it’s plot twist and turns
After finding you and making love, I no longer watch sex scenes in romantic movies and tell myself that doesn’t exist or wonder as if it’s never going to happen for me
When you make love with someone I feel like you become one in a way, I don’t know where the fuck you are, who you are with and what you’re doing
But like I said I’m okay
Which is weird kind of right? But I feel as if we created something original and irreplaceable in those moments together
No one could ever compare and I don’t think I would want anyone to, not any time soon Atleast
For the first time in my life I’m content with being lonely and I wanna drown in this for as long as I can, it’s a bliss that I don’t want it to be disrupted
Even in your absence I still feel your company stronger than ever sometimes. Isn’t that amazing and a little bit crazy. Life is crazy I guess.
I miss you but I don’t want you here does that make any sense? Because if I see you I’m not going to let you go again and although we’re somehow tethered together
There are a few things I wanna do and a few people I want to meet before I make my way back to you
Which I’m sure I will; not in a future terribly far from now. I just have this feeling I can’t shake.
Or maybe I’m crazy. But any who I’m okay baby and I know you are too.